time ade x pandai nk hargai..da xde bru nk gigit jari..

okey, i noe, im supposed to be burning the midnite oil now but got distracted with my brother's fb status:

time ade x pandai nk hargai..da xde bru nk gigit jari..

huu..abg, kak pun same. =.="

if only. if only. i have time capsule to go back to those times, and put it back together, nicely. sigh~

kenape baru skrg nk rase cani? padan muke sendiri. huuu~

i wish i cud say, im sorry and let out all the reasons for what i had done to u. huhu~

sorry!

ok.dah.sambung study.esok test grammar.wish me luck. hehe. mwa. mwa! :)

saye ke yang bermasalah? T_T

mungkin sebab sy takde any sister,

saye kurang paham kot cara hidup ngn orang lain dalam 1 bilik

mungkin sebab sy takde any sister,

saye taktau kalau saye shuping ape, saye mesti kongsi cerita shoping tu,myb sambil lompat kegirangan..and tunjuk ape saye beli, bawak kuar balik dari wardrobe..tunjuk2 sambil hepi2

mungkin sebab sy takde any sister,

saye taktau kalau shoping ape2 mesti same ngn orang tu, kalau tak same pun, maybe adela iras-iras tu..kot..

mungkin sebab sy takde any sister,

saye taktau la kalau saye balas mesej cm kerap sikit, orang akan ter'affected'. and, kemestian lah kot tuk sy cite..sy cite je kalau kte bestfriends..

mungkin sebab sy takde any sister,

saye taktau kalau dia kasi sy pinjam anything barang dia, saye mesti kongsi jugak saye punye. sy igt, pinjam for the sake of pinjam jela, nothing in return..

mungkin sebab sy takde any sister,

saye tatau kalau pakai earphone dengar lagu kegemaran saye pun, masih akan menganggu orang study. tp kalau vibrate phone yang orang pakai earphone pun bley dgr, mungkin tak ganggu kot..

mungkin sebab sy takde any sister,

saye taktau kalau even sy moody pun, da create some kind of wall and ade papan tanda 'im not in a good mood, don't talk to me' pun, saye mesti.........banyak cakap, gelak2, layan orang tu punye cerita.

mungkin sebab sy takde any sister,

kalau saye wujudkan ape2 rules pun, saye taktau kalau si adik punye rules, tak berape nk diterime...

sorylah saye taktau sisters rules macam mane.

saye tak penah rase hidup kongsi bilik kt rumah..

saye tak penah rase privasi sy diganggu di rumah..

saye tak tahu mcm mana nk share barang, taktau mcm mana nk pakai barang same..

saye ade umi saye je yang myb paham situasi saye..

bukan sy tak cube..

sy tak biasa. T.T

i've tried my best to understand people, and i still don't get it why is it so hard for them to understand me. and when actions speak louder than words, i think u shud know by my actions. but still..

sy myb takde biological sister, tp sy ade je 5 awesome sisters yang faham my situation.

sy myb tak biase, tp sy penah kongsi dorm ngn 15 other sisters for two years and it was great.

sy myb tak cube, tp sy berjaye je hidup ngn 3 other coursemates for 1 year yang paham privasi sendiri.

tataula nape yang ni.susah sgt.

i don't hate u. but i'm not comfortable. im not saying that u're bad person. myb we're just not a good combination. myb we are, but not for a long period. sorry i can't confront this with u. like what i said, myb because i don't have any sister, i don't know how. this is the only way i can let it out of my mind.

nak.bunuh.diri.

yep. nak bunuh diri.

dah banyak sgt da keje. BANYAK gile! extreme hectic. huuu

nk bunuh diri. bley?

hee. x la. maen2 je. :P

aceli nk share ni je. hee

since this sem bljr teaching poem. n with miss mimi n pn.ju yang best, tutorial will be the day of our creative thinking :D

hehe.

so, dat day belajar poem resume by dorothy parker. haha miss mimi asyik duk nk sebut dorothy perkins. lol~ comel je.

because poem ni, menceritakan pengalaman dorothy try utk bunuh diri for few times, miss mimi suruh ktrg pikirkan 10 ways to kill myself :) hehe

it's pretty hard. sape nk bunuh2 diri ni en..time tu plak ngntuk..hehe. n paksa diri pikir cane..so, these are that 10 ways :) it's not that creative i think. sbb ngntuk. n sbb paksa rela. i think kim punye best. nak bace dia punye? click here :)

here's mine:

1. step into elephants' cage in zoo so that they'll step on me till i die.

myb kene pijak skali pun da cukup kot. erk~

2. steal someone's creadit card (n make sure it's valid :P), spend one whole day at the most expensive hotel and drown myself in the bathtub.

hee. ala2 britney spears mungkin? hahaha~ dia takpela, dia hot. hahaha. me? hahaha~

3. ride a rollercoster without the seatbelt. then let myself being thrown away.

tak sape jumpe. (skali hidup lagi en..) hee

4. jump from a cable car.

paling dekat, genting kan? haha

5. die from extreme freeze in ice-cube lorry.

makan2 ais pastu beku. haha~

6. eat a bowl of all sorts of medicine and poison soup.

tambah megi cukup rase sure best. catering anyone? :P

7. get myself waxed.

bwat muzium diri sendiri kt rumah sendiri. haha gile miskin.

8. gunshot at my head.

skali pun kire cukup kan? ^^

9. blow myself in a plane.

mati bersama pilot hensem. berterabur jatuh bersama2 ngn plane. dramatis!~ haha~ bengom.

10. die in virtual game like house of dead.

yang ni, bley mati banyak kali mcm reload gun tu kan? hee

hehe. takde keje kan?

but this one memang boley jadi post-reading punye activity ^^

kla. tu je.

susah dah nk update blog.

ni pun boleh kt mini lib. reward tuk diri sendiri sbb habis bace 1 chap cik pah pny.

1je! ade 3 lagi! huuuu T____T

nak balik bilik dah. :)

sambung study.

malam ni nk lukis poster tu poem the wild swan at coole pulak ^^

kim, bwak turun kaler pensil byk2!

haha ter'excited' lebih sbb lame tak gune kaler pencil nih. hee

kalau ade crayon pun best jgk ni.... :D

bye! ^^

currently listening to:

Big Bang - Always

bila pindah ke blok lelaki.

1. ade banyak kesan tapak kasut kt tepi dinding kat mane2 je. kecuali siling~

2. even ade kesan tapak kasut ATAS TILAM. siyes tak paham. tido pakai kasut kot..ehe. bangun pagi terus pegi kelas en..

3. katil tibe2 jadi tinggi yang extreme sbb diorang terbalikkan. apekah? - ini bilik k.faizah.. :P

4. ade kesan spray2 merah. emo terlebih.

5. almari yang memang tinggi tu, mcam da rosak kt atas tu. ini pun takpaham jugak.

6. setiap bilik ade info board kt luar. and wrapper tu, ade corak love2. errr...

7. ade...under..ware..? dem. stress. sbb ade depan pintu. memang tak boley terime.

8. ade bantal dalam almari. huuuuu T__T mengapekah...

9. ade bilik air, 4 bilik, sume TAKDE PINTU! ini kat ground floor. pun tak paham.

10. ade tulisan banyak nk mati kt almari. "once ruled here" bwuek~ macam dia sorang je penah jadi senior. huu~

11. pintu loker kt meja study nk tercabut. tension jugak.

12. ade 1 bekas biskut almond london tak bukak2 lagi kt dalam loker. tapi tak tahu tahun bile punye biskut. dustbin ade betul2 depan bilik. nk jugak letak kt situ. huu

13. cermin kt bilik air sume tinggi2. :'P memang tak nmpk muke. hee

tu, observation tuk mlm pertama kt blok kenanga. haha~

but i like one thing - kt ground, diorang punye instruction suruh bukak kasut time nk masuk restroom tu best. haha~ makan dalam punye ayat. :))

got counselling test todae. gud luck anish! ^^

currently listening to:

Taylor Swift - Forever and Always

saye orang nomad. huu

yep betul. macam orang nomad dah skrg nih~ oh ade yang tatau ke? ehe :P orang yang pindah randah ye yang :)

hari ni, tibe2 dpt tau..sume budak blok melur kena pindah kenanga..huu~

bad news is kena pindah dalam masa 2 hari shaje..eh tak. 3. hehe. but still~

good news is..tak duduk top floor dah! ^^ tukar 1st floor! heeho~ :D

pindah sbb kolej bwat wiring baru..so memang kene pindah..

pukul 5 balik kelas, pegi check bilik.

pukul 6 pegi mop bilik. siyes berhabuk! 3 kali mop pun bley rase lgi habuk. =.="

and nak marah bile masuk blok laki2 nih..diorang ni, agak2 la emo pun, tak perlu la nak spray almari tu ngan spray merah, siap tulis name gf dia, lukis love segala dgn pangkah2..pastu kt ampaian siap ade tulis i miss you. scary! nasib baik orang yang wiring tu tinggal cat dia kt luar bilik n tadi tak pasal2 mengecat kt bilik! haha~

n only my room takde langsir! huu..malangnye..pak cik wahid..tolong pasang ye esok..maseh.. :)

pukul 9 pegi tukar kunci and start pindah.

pukul 12am. baru sedar,dah pukul 12 and still kt kenanga, still kemas barang. and still BANYAK barang kat melur. dem..~ susah nye jadi orang pompuan nih..sume benda nak simpan kan? hehe. gediks~

and sekarang baru la..baru on9 sbb tibe2 limited. ches..

and still taktau how's d connction kt kenanga..huhu. kalau ada update, later kite cite :D

anyway..

finally baru habis tengok cite ni! you're beautiful :D

eheh~ love the last 2 episodes! huuu nanges2 tgk..hee~

kasi 5 stars tuk cite ni. best. kelakar. and sume2 lah! ^^

okies, sape2 blum tgk, pegi tgk skrang sebab sgt best! suda addicted ngn sume lagu ost cite ni :) hehe

tgk je kt utube, bukan utebu kay. hahaha~

ade 16 episodes. :)

ade jang geun suk. love his smile! ^^

ade park shin hye :) a girl n a boy :P

ade yong jung hwa ..erm betullah kot eja ni..haha

and ade hongki yang chumel! ^^

and ade uee from after school and okay, after school sgt best!!!! dah gila lagu diva dia. omo omo~

*luv luv luv*

3.39am. n still takley tido. and still lesson plan ntah kemana~ hesh~

esok pilihanraya mpp upm.

malasnye nk pegi mengundi...~ haih~

macam2 gaye diorang promote nk suruh undi..ade tu, manifesto bukan main banyak. ntah bwat ke tdak. time nk jadi mpp ni rajin la. list smpi 100 bley. habis je pilihanraya. mcm takde berubah pape pun...hmmm~

tp yang penting, tgk notis, esok kelas 3-4pm tangguh. hahaha. means that takde tutorial dr.jaya ke? wheeeee~ *hepi hepi hepi!*

jangan tiru aksi malas ni. haha

ok dah. hee. buibui!

currently listening to:

after school - diva :)

tolong la..tolong la!

tolongla pakai mask kalau rase diri tu dah batuk kuat gile and obviously bley kasi jangkit kt sume orang.
ok fine, taknak pakai mask pun, coverla pakai saputangan ke..ape ke? takde ke? meh nk tolong beli. hish!

ini dah bukan melepaskan batuk ditangga sendiri, tapi lepas batuk kt tangga sume rumah orang. huuuuu
stress!

pakai mask pun ade jgk gaye.

myb tak nmpk la mekap.

tak nmpk la blusher tu.

...

n cud u please please please for God's sake have ur medicine? u'r not a child anymore who can't think of it.

and i wonder if u have ur significant other whom u text everyday, everytime, din he tell you these most basic things? duh~

come on la eh, think of other people as well.

free call :P

tengs cik fza,

1 hour and 43 minutes.

i love talking to you! ^^ hehe

fza n ain,

nak jumpe korang jugak!!!!! huuuu~

tak kire, lepas ni kene dtang sini, kite hang out same2 keyh!

pegi grab yana same :D

missing all of you! so much :')